epiphanies

The 40th entry. This is part of what I've learned.

A birthday is a day like any other day.
40 is not a big amount.
40 is enough.
40 is arbitrary.
Priorities are important.
Even being flexible does not always guarantee peace.
You are responsible for your own emotions.
Just because you feel something does not mean you need to say or act upon it.
Unraveling is complicated.
There is power in limits.
Life is better with people in it.
Remaining open to serendipity is a gift.
This is not the end.

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momentum

The birds created their own energy. They spoke of displacement, carrying the goods, finding oneself in unusual circumstances, and moving in groups. They gave firsthand evidence: the inevitability of dirt, the accidental seed, the places we have and haven't touched.









































Springboarding off that motion, the city sprouted a 40-leaved suburban laurel in the same neighborhood, right next to the lightpole with the acanthus base. This did not happen alone: it needed the thought, the action, the catalyst, the navigator and the stapler.

cluster

Seeds that survive being digested first by birds have a greater chance at germinating, growing best far from the site that they were eaten. Bird-dispersed seeds are generally red or black.

Bird gatherings go by enough names to make a found poem: charm, congregation, flock, scold, dissimulation, flight, tidings, sord, watch, murder, bevy, aerie, clamor, skein, wedge.

This cluster of doves strafed the community bulletin board outside Blackbird Bakery today, and then some disbanded. Public Art Works was deeply moved by all of the humans involved. If anyone has discovered the seed their bird was carrying and has found their way here, please feel free to post a comment (anonymously if you like).

scattering

A trail of crumbs.

I have been working hard at understanding what I am doing here. My connection between things is evident to me, but not always so clear to all in the work. So I want to leave some indication of my intention throughout the day, and leave it open to interpretation. This is where it's at: the purposefulness of the act linked with serendipity. The gesture and the receipt of it.

Today's entry opens as the day progresses.

vigilance

Planting is a deliberate act, so different from the random joy of seeds landing where they might and volunteering to grow. Somehow this isn't always enough, just to sit back and let those things happen by themselves. The active participant conducts experiments with seeds, breaks branches or seedpods and tucks them in the dirt. They collect, transfer, sow, and care. There are no skipped steps; the process is not forgiving.

rootbound

Considering again the power of words to contain multiple meanings. Roots twisting into each other, bound as a result of growing beyond capacity and remaining in the confinement. My solution is tough love: shears cut through the roots to spread them apart, a new location is found, fresh soil or compost added. Best done when the plant is dormant, but before hard frost, so new growth comes in the spring.

passage

I can't resist more references to the shape of an unfurling life in James Hollis' writing. He suggests that the opportunity for conscious living starts somewhere in the middle of one's life. In contrast to behavior learned as children and the strong cultural expectations that shape that learning, we come to understand that there is a choice about which of these characteristics we take into the later part of life, and a responsibility to find our true self.

Rather than an outright parallel to any botanical theme, I'm thinking that this looks more like a personal topography. Bruce Chatwin wrote about songlines, the Australian Aboriginal charting of time and space through music and words that simultaneously emerge along and describe a walked passage through the land. It blows my mind each time I read it, trying to think about these multiple dimensions growing out of one creation. This is the shape of passage I'd choose: one that flows and offers mind-bending new perspectives.

extrusion

Today was like a line casting out and reeling in. I moved away and came back at the same time.

Lines were everywhere: the highway, the snow on the mountains, the yarn, the wire, the paper. All of them shifting dimensions and scale, wrapping around each other. I let some of them unroll on their own; others needed help.

The vine is a grown line. It is writing, linked arms in dance, a thread to the memory of a greenhouse, a garden, and a walk down the middle of unlit roads.

loss and longing

These words are linked by the idea of a search. And here, a discovery.

Two glass net floats reunited.

dissemination

Reading about seed bombs today. As an alternative for the cold months, I am sending out plant imagery into the world, virtually and in real time. Maybe things will grow. Isn't that what humans are doing anyway?

imperfection

Part of the exercise is forgiving oneself for mistakes, allowing for the beauty of awkwardness and omission that makes us human. Today's first entry is really December 13th's entry, posted in the middle of the night.

Validation from Christopher Alexander's The Nature of Order: The Phenomenon of Life. He addresses the power of wabi-to-sabi, or the Zen "rusty beauty" aesthetic philosophy. And he continues: "...[objects that are full of life] are all beautiful, but they are all damaged. Life itself is damaged, and nothing which is perfect can be truly alive... This quality, the real life, the deep life of all great art, and of all genuine experience, is our aim."

loose ends

Botanical sketches, sensory connections, walking a trail, making what i know -- all of these have been growing toward the light of project completion.

"There is a love for the marvellous, a belief in the marvellous, intertwined in all my projects, which hurries me out of the common pathways of men, even to the wild and unvisited regions I am about to explore." Mary Shelley

reminders

embrace shadows
flourish within limitations
hang over the line

the pleasure of the seeing these manifest in physical work

...and sensing

Feeling the shortcomings of this mode, as if the fascination with the immediacy of recording and writing is not living up to the kinesthetic cadence of real life. Smelling the cracked grey cold of the day, the backblow of smoke out of the woodstove, the bite of toasted cumin. Feeling the ache of split skin on the pad of my right middle finger. Hearing a breath inhaled, a sigh, lapping water from the tree stand, a marble rolling under the stove. Tasting watered down lingonberry juice, then preserved ginger with orange, anise and salt. None of this translates.

making sense

The search for overarching connectivity within the vast variety of our known world is a unifying theme for artists and scientists. Can it be an accident that the proportions of natural forms are found in musical root harmonies?

cycles

The Madison Avenue poinsettias have died in the turn of cold weather, which was to be expected of tropical plants outdoors here at this time of year. I want to be sad about it, because planting them was such a joy. But it also marks and affirms life's non-linearity and the inevitability of darkness coming with light. It is another reminder of the tension between humans and place.

action as metaphor

Some observations would have me believe I am hardwired to weave: culture and environment, blackberry vines and roses, music, street theater and battery recycling, and words and pictures.

So is the bower bird, albeit for other reasons; depicted here in its wikipedia entry:
"the bower ranges from a circle of cleared earth with a small pile of twigs in the center to a complex and highly decorated structure of sticks and leaves — usually shaped like a walkway, a small hut or a maypole — into and around which the (bird) places a variety of objects he has collected. These objects — usually strikingly colored — may include hundreds of shells, leaves, flowers, feathers, stones, berries, and even discarded plastic items or pieces of glass. The bird spends hours carefully sorting and arranging his collection, with each object in a specific place...the collection of objects reflects the personal taste of each bird and its ability to procure unusual and rare items..."

How can the physical part of one's practice substantiate and reveal the concept behind the work? In the end, visual art needs to be read by viewers, and in an ideal world there is meaning inherent in the work. But isn't there power in the labor that might be important to understanding what we are doing and how it is conveyed?

handwork

Today's work consisted of recuperation, soup and nesting. Knitting with tinned copper.

at the core

La tête est pleine mais le coeur n'a pas assez.
My head is full but my heart hasn't had enough.
Lhasa de Sela, La Marée Haute

transmigration

This is the title of a small series of work I've been building, and I am interested to see what the definitions really are (as opposed to the definition I'd like it to have): a moving of souls to new bodies, of landless people to land, of expatriates to new countries, and a rippling effect of changes made to related parts in solid modeling. And as much as none of these fits, they all do, to a certain degree.

more is not more

I would like to celebrate the halfway point of this project by cleaving the water in half. Instead I allow this insistence of rain to swell up the wood, rust the steel, overrun its ditches and culverts, and seep into my foundation.

Flow is a theme running through my work. It sums up the untenable quality of working in the psychosensitive space that is most open and creative for art, as well as the idea that this kind of energy comes when it will and takes its own course. John McPhee chronicled three examples of catastrophic flow and the humans who negotiated these undeniable forces in The Control of Nature, a favorite read.

I offer up an image of past work that has resonance tonight, a waterchime from 1991.

proliferating

more is more.
throwing these leaf boats into the gushing storm drain in front of my house

snow planting

Today Public Art Works planted two times 40 red poinsettias and shot a bit of festive holiday color up Madison Avenue on Bainbridge Island, prevailing in the midst of snow and weekend traffic.